POWERLESS

Control is a word used everyday to describe some kind of power. Weather it be with a situation, ourselves, others, and life. It took 45 yrs of my life to finally even hear the word Powerless let alone find out the meaning it had. I always thought of myself as a person that had it all together. I also have found out this last year that i wasn't as together as i thought i was. If something or someone didn't do what i thought was best then i got pissed or depressed, thats what you call a person that likes control. I was consentrating on my will and my will alone. I honestly thought i knew better, now i know that i really don't. There are things that happen in this world and in my life that i have no control over. I have finally found peace in my life just knowing that i am POWERLESS. God is in charge and not me.

My Children

The greatest gift that God has given me besides his love and grace, are my Children. They are truely a blessing in my life and one of the biggest reasons I am living my life the way i do today.

Children are like sponges, they soak up everything around them. Thats why it's so important to set a good example for them as they grow up.

The world is nothing without our children, they are the future and its up to us to make sure they know they are loved no matter what. The human spirit is the most powerful thing and the more love it is fed, the more it will shine and do good for us all.

I am the happiest man in the world to be a Daddy, there is no drug or anything else that gets me higher than watching my kids grow up and learn  new things. There's laughter, anger, happiness and sadness, it's all part of life however it's my job as a parent to teach them how to handle each and every trial or tribulation they may encounter in there life until they are old enough to handle it on there own. The way I handle things, they are going to mimic and handle it the way they see me  do it, Thats why I live my life in a manner that benefits my kids, GODS WAY!!

My children are only on loan to me, they belong to God. I just feel so privilaged that God sees me as a good enough man to entrust me with such a precious gift. I will not let God down and i will not let my babies down. THANK YOU LORD FOR THE BEST JOB EVER-----BEING A DADDY!!!

Wisdom

 

The Bible talks about life and how you can live forever through Jesus Christ, however my favorite passages talk about WISDOM. In all my 45yrs here on this earth, I've learned probably the most valuable lesson ever. The older i get the less i know, thats the way God intended it to be. I look to him now in everything i do with my life. Wisdom is God and the greatest teacher ever.

The key to a simple life is in the BIBLE. The key to me being a simple man lyes within my heart and  that belongs to no one but Jesus and my children. Anything else that i let get in between that is not WISE at all. Life is a journey and not A destination. This is mearly a stepping stone for something greater. It took a lot of Pain, heartache, defeat and crashing to really make me understand that its not about me but all of us and what Gods plan is for us all. We are all brought into this world with a purpose and a gift. It's the way you percieve  that purpose and that gift, that determinds how your life plays out. Is that gift indeed a curse? or is your purpose indeed your dream?  I thought i knew it all people!!  I know now that i don't know SHIT!!  I am a broken man and I think thats the way God preferes me. The only fight i have left in me is the fight i have to live my life for Jesus. I am open to learning and i indeed learn something new every time God blesses me with another day of living. LIFE IS ALL ABOUT LEARNING & WITH LEARNING COMES WISDOM. 

Hate

Pain is a part of life and its something we learn from. However, if your not aware of the learning part then the pain could easily turn into hate. HATE WILL DESTROY US! I am so thankful that i have a relationship with my higher power and he makes me understand that this is just another step in my walk with him. Hate is nothing but Satan at work. I have no openings in my life for that. LIFE IS ALL ABOUT LEARNING.

Lies

You try to live your life to the best of your ability. Its not easy by any means but you still try and do your best, especially when you have children that depend on you. Life is what you make of it and when you are led to believe something that you basically wrap your life around and then find out that it was nothing but a complete lie, it really sends you into a state of panic on what to believe anymore. Whats real and whats not, thats what im asking myself now. I gave someone my heart completely and was led to believe i had hers, COMPLETELY. I never did and im devestated over the fact that she played me for all that time we were together. Why do people do that to one another? It makes me wonder if these people even know what affect and damage it can really do to another person. I have always been a person that has a big heart and i give it away pretty easily at times but after this last episode of being lied to and played with, this kid is on security alert. My heart belongs to God and my kids, thats all.

Forrest Gump

Do you all remember the movie Forrest Gump? This 1994 hit movie touched me in such a way that i still get chills when i think about it. Tom Hanks portrayed the character of Forrest Gump, a slow but very simple human being that encountered some amazing things in his life. I laughed, i cried and i just loved this movie bcz of the way Forrest was. He loved everyone and never gave up on his one true love " JENNY" He was a true role model for me in displaying patients. In the end his JENNY came back and then there was little Forrest, his son. What a fantastic Father he was to that little boy. In my opinion, if there were a lot more people in this world like Forrest Gump then the world would be so much better. FORREST GUMP IS MY HERO.

Love

How do you really know when its love and not infactuation? The answer for me is still unknown. I can sure tell you this though? It always hurts when you really thought with all your heart that it was love and it turned out not to be for the other person. The emotional pain you endure is by far more greater than any physical pain ever. Why does this happen? Especially when you have children together? People use the word LOVE way to loosely and it affects people oh so greatly. Love is not a game, toy or even to be taken for granit. Love is to be cherished and held up high so everyone can see it. Love is for real, so mean it next time you say it, PLEASE!! THE FIRST PERSON YOU MUST LOVE BEFORE ANYONE ELSE IS YOURSELF.

Simple Man

All i've ever wanted my whole life was to be a Simple Man. The song by Leonard Skinnard says it all. My friend John Lane who recently passed away was my hero and role model when it came to demostrating jus that, a simple man. I will miss you my friend. GOD PUTS PEOPLE IN OUR LIVES LIKE JOHN TO TEACH US HOW TO GROW AND SIMPLIFY ARE LIVES TO BETTER UNDERSTAND THE MEANING OF OUR LIVES. I learned so much from John in jus the 4 yrs that i knew him. God worked through him to teach not only me but everyone he came in contact with. ITS A BLESSING THAT THATS WHAT JOHN WAS, A RETIRED TEACHER BY TRADE BUT EVEN THOUGH HE WAS RETIRED, HE STILL WENT ON TEACHING PEOPLE ABOUT LIFE. He was wise and a Simple Man.